to everyone at the Munich show

To the people of Munich and everyone who likes and supports our band.

I know some of you probably hate me (whoever was at lastnights show) and i can understand. But i feel like i need to somehow explain myself and also apologise to you all.

Last night was me in pure rage. Its not me, thats not my personality...it just happened through various things being built up.

It was not planned, and it was not something i felt before going onstage. If i didnt want to play i wouldnt have. I did and i was looking forward to it as we have played at the same venue many times and the crowd have been ace.

I cant really explain or excuse what happened but this is all i can say. Since we have been playing to more and more people, its kinda been difficult to deal with certain things.

Mostly what people expect of us and also the sexism i have received on a daily basis.

At most shows i get people shouting 'get your tits out' or something along the lines, and most days we recieve emails from people who are being really nice...but also some messages that usually tell me that i cant play guitar, to give up, to stop acting like a man, and that i am just there to look pretty.

After a while these things get to me as i am not the most confident person in the world, and i am human. we play so much and it can be hard everynow and again to remain sane. And last night was an example of me just loosing it. And altho it was not anyones fault and i understand its only a very small minority of people who think or shout things out like that...it still grinds you down and i just just went crazy.

Im not going start saying that its justified that i shouted at the audience because it wasnt...and im sorry it happened. If its any consilation im sitting here feeling pretty awful. most people loose there cool in private, but when most of your days are with 5 men and then with 300 people and upwards each night...i guess it kinda happened in public.

Im sorry to those who travelled to see us and im sorry to everyone who bought a tic and was upset with what happened.

To us its not a JOB its our passion, we cant pretend and fake stuff with you because thats not us. Altho it is what we do everyday and earn our living from...we just cant treat it like a job in the fact that you shut it off at 6pm, or that we need to be putting a face on each night. Because we dont turn off at 6pm we are blood red shoes everyday.we have stuff to do everyday and if we started looking at it like a job then i cant see the point in it. If we feel shit we feel shit just like most people...but i guess people expect us to be on form every night. But we can never promise you a great gig everynight as much as i would love to. I do love and respect all the people that come to our shows and support us. because of you we can exsist and i hope our music talks to you in some way.

Bands have ups and downs, and obviously it can be intense just being two people. But i love steve very much and we wind each other up all the time and we know all the right buttons to push. But i have never met such an amazing person as him, he is my best friend.

And i know we both believe in the same things and we both want to make honest music that people can relate to. Because thats it really, we are just two people with the same problems as everyone else, and we make mistakes too and we have to face them.

So here i am facing my mistake in the best way i can as i dont know any other way to reach you all.

I just want you to know that i never intended for any of that to happen. And i learnt something from it and i hope nothing like this ever happens again.

I do want to say tho that we dont tolerate sexism at our shows and i have been quiet for sometime now trying to brush it off but its not right. I put everything into blood red shoes which is why i get effected so much by things. And its been building up and now its time for it to stop. Im sorry for the rest of you who are bloody great and love our band you guys are the best and im sorry for those i offended. All i can say is sorry and hope that you may be a little clearer on what was going on now and i know it probally wont make much difference but i do mean all this with my heart

all my love

Laura-Mary xxxx